haiyo...last dae of holidae le...but i still haven finish any hmwk yet...haha
jus came back fr k.l few daes ago...played 2 matches on e 2nd dae n another on e last dae on our way back...lost all e games but i guess every1 earned sth fr this trip...saw e improvement in many of them which i guess is e best reward for e trip...daisy is gettin more n more stable as she gets mroe n more rebounds for e team....her rebounds sure do make a diff. to e shooters shootin...plus angel is gettin e concept of attackin n her reboundin skills r equalli good...i guess we may hv lost all e games but its thx to these few games tt every1's improvin...i gout fouled out in mi 1st game though...n actualli got 4 fouls in e 1st quarter for mi 2nd game...mi most amzin record on fouls. i guess...haha...mi score was pathetic though...think i onli scored abt 17 pts throughout e whole trip...onli 17 when we played 3 games....haha...but i scored a 3 pter though...haha..damn tyco cos i haven been shootin for so long...but well...better than nth...durin e last game...we broke e opponents full court press with 1 beautiful fast break though....i guess its realli damn nice...haha..
on e other hand..e guys r also doin quite well...they almost won e 2nd game but a pity 8 of them got fouled out and so there were a lack of players towards e end of e game thus they lost...but well..i guess they did quite well overall though..
e trip was....hmmmm...not bad lo...every1 seems to hv enjoyed themselves...n we saw loads of acjc ppl there since we were stayin in e same hotel...drank e pelican on e 1st nite...n decided i should get to bed earli b4 i get knocked out....haha...but e alcohol is not as bad as i thought la...its actualli like fruit juice..haha...
on e last dae of e trip...met e m.i ppl in e restaurant for lunch...they were supposed to hv a game b4 us but they were late..so in e end...our whole trip was delayed...i reached home at 1130....
tt was e summary for e k.l trip...
went to watch hitch with him on fri. n e show rocks!!! haha...but i guess i chose e wrong seatin...ppl in front of us were hittin us whenever they laugh..n ppl behind us were kickin us everytime they started laughin...those typical ah bengs..haha...but we still kind of enjoyed e show la....cos hitch is jus so funni....n e show is so sweet...Sarah's philosophy reminds mi of his philosophy...haha...but sarah changed her mind towards e end of e show, she changed her philosophy totalli...so i guess i will change his mind too..haha...i shall make him be another sarah... =)
actualli jus when i thought this holiddae sucks...but actualli e last few daes was actualli quite ok lo...haha...e movie was great especialli...haha
gtg finish mi rest of e hmwk...but actualli i m goin out again..haha...can't stand stayin at home anymore....too crowded...kind of can't stand it anymore if i stay any longer..quite glad sch's startin again tml....
1:40 PM
leavin tml...but probs. r surfacin again....sian...
1st its packin e bags...i hate it when i hv to sit down n think wat i need for e trip...then i hv to start packin it so tt its neat n tidy n all e bullshits la...so. mi sol. to this prob. is....get a big bag....n it mus be a SUPER GIGANTIC HUGE 1...haha...n i got it...i threw everythin tt i think i need into e bag.n..................mi bag is done....haha..i don care wats gonna happen next. but all i koe now is. packin is a hassle...so throwin is so much mroe easier...
but then. mi parents start naggin mi abt those bullshits. tt i hate to hear....but worst of all..they compare mi with all their fav. niece n nephews of theirs....oh mi..!!! craps n bullshits...since they love them so much...ok FINE!!!. they should get them as their kid....y accept mi as their daughter then....all they r concern with is them. then fine....go love them n dote on them....hate mi n kill mi then...i jus can't stand it when they seem to shower mroe concern for them then for mi....y do i feel like they love them more then they love mi....i hate them!!!!! y do they treat their daughter like this...sometimes it realli occurs to mi if i m reallli their daughter...!!!! m i???? jus b4 e trip leavin for mi basketball overseas trip....they come to mi with all these bullshits instead of concern n love for mi askin mi to take care...they nag abt mi for not helpin them out...!!!do they realli love mi...i bet they don...all they do is love mi beloved sis. n all mi cousins bullshits tt i hv...they don even care if anythin will happen to mi durin e trip. i bet they will laugh out loud if i meet with any accident durin mi k.l trip....if its realli like this...then fine lo. i kind of then hope tt i meet with an accident e moment i step out of mi house tml...!!!! y do i feel tt they hate mi loads....reminds mi of e tv serial tt i've been catchin recentli on sun. in e nite...e mum hates e daughter cos e daughter is an adopted kid......m i 1???
but fortunateli...great things did happen todae too.....though not realli considered great...but i finalli heard fr him. n i m so glad nth happen...haha...i still thought he feel down e deep blue sea drownin himself...lol....
tml's finalli e overseas trip. i kind of look forward to it in e past. but now....i don think so...seems to be jus another burden for mi....don realli like this feelin of hangin in e air. but i thought maybe good things will still happen...though we r not goin to e same place...i still sincerli hope tt we will meet on e way or sth...though i don koe how strong e opponents r gonna be....n i heard tt we will br thrashed...i still hope tt every1 will be able to perform n play to their optimum...though i don koe if i m gonna realli enjoy this trip. but i still hope tt i will c it fr e bright side. n forget everythin tts unhappi....haha...y do i feel like i m consolin miself...haizz/..but nvm la...somethin is better than nth....
i saw this quote todae... "God created love for mankind; learn to love n u'll be love."
i kind of wan to think its true...n i hope its true...i believe in miracle believe in fate believe in instincts...believe in everythin n anythin tt ppl might not or would nto believe in...all superstitiousness n etc...but its cos of this believe tt makes mi still hv e courage to still stand on where i stand now...i may not hv e courage to face them. but its e believe n faith tt i hv with mi friends tt they will stand by mi tt makes take this veri firm stand tt i take now..
haha....seem to hv bullshit too much...wat m i doin...haizzzi mus be crazy...
11:28 PM
KISS-Because I'm a girl
wu hoo ye ye ye he ye ye ye he oo hoo , hoo -
do dae che al soo ga ups u - nam ja deul uy ma eum
wun hal ddaen un je go da joo ni i jen ddu nan de e
i run jug chu eum i ra go nu neun teug byul ha da neun geu mal eul mid uss u
nae gen haeng bog i yuss u -
mal eul ha ji geu raess u - nae ga shirh u jyuss da go o o o
noon chi ga ups neun nan
neul bo chae gi man haess u hoo hwu hwu
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ja i ni gga
mwu deun gul swip ge da joo myu yun -
geum bang shil jeung nae neun ge nam ja ra deul uss u teul rin mal gat ji anh a - a
da shi neun sog ji anh eu ri hi ma eum mug u bo ji ma an
ddo da shi sa rang e moo nu ji neun ge yu ja ya a ha -
mal eul ha ji geu raess u - nae ga shirh u jyuss da go o o o
noon chi ga ups -neun nan
neul bo chae gi man haess u oo hwu hwu
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ja i ni gga
[narration]
,o neul oo rin he u jyuss u,
,boo di haeng bog ha ra go , nu bo da joh eun sa ram man na gil ba ran da go
,nu do da reun nam ja rang ddog gat ae , nal sa rang han da go ,mal hal ddaen un je go,
,,,,,,,,sol jig hi ,,na ,, ni ga jal doe neun gu shirh u,
,na bo da ,ye ppeun yu ja man na haeng bog ha ge jal sal myun u dduh ge
,geu ru da nal jung mal ,ij u bu ri myun u dduh ge
,nan i ruh ge him deun de , him deul u joog gess neun de,
,a jig do nul nu moo sa rang ha neun de,,,
sa rang eul wi hae su ra myun mwu deun da hal soo iss neu eun
yu ja uy chag han bon neung eul i yong ha ji neun mal a jyo hwu - [hoo ----]
na (deul ril deus mal deus ) han yu ja ro tae u na , sa rang bad go sa neun ge i he he
i ruh ge him deul go u ryu ool jool mol rass u hwu -
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ja i ni gga
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ..ja .i .....ni gga hwu hwu -
...translation of e song...so sweet...
Kiss *Because I'm a girl*--------------------------------------
i just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special i believed those words
and i was so happy you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
i heard that if you give up things too easily to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again but she will fall in love again
you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
[narration] Hey babe the pain it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but i know now i've been blind you told me that youd never let me down whenever i needed you you'd always be here
i can forgive but i cant forget even though you hurt me
i still love you i still love you
don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
1:15 AM
OH FUCK U!!!!! HYPOCRITE.... u say 1 thing n do another....WTH....so is tt a true revelation of ur true self...!!!! fine....if doin this is being selfish...!!! then too bad...I M A BITCH!!!.... i m jus reciprocatin however e way u guys r treatin mi...I M SELFISH....so wat...u r WORSE!!! u say 1 thing n do another....do 1 thing in front of them n do another in front...then now....WOW...THX...
say wat u wan do wat u wan...since u R IN CHARGE WAT...fine lo....
u big wat...u DO LA...i m jus a bitch tt none of u like wat....fine....u r so likeable....u r such an angel...ok lo...U DO LA...
BITCH...BITCH..BITCH..BITCH!!!! I HATE U...N SINCE ITS A RECIPROCAL RELATIONSHIP...U CAN'T BLAME MI FOR SAYIN THIS...cos i sure u hate mi too....ohhh...FUCK U....
i m so bloody pissed now...ruinin mi good mood....but unfortunately...i shall let it end here....n forget everythin...cos stayin happi is always better than gettin troubled...ok..fine...i m done now...n........
i've forgotten....
now....back to mi life....jus had trainin....n it feels so tirin....sch is tirin...life is tirin....trainin is worst...haha...worst...we're goin to k.l next week....feels like theres gonna be loads of stuff to prepare....oh dear....i need more time ar!!!!!
i m gettin so tired....but somehow...i still alittle look forward to e trip....haha....its e same dae tt we r goin...haha....great!!!!
yesterdae i saw this quote: When someone hurts us we should write it down in sand where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. But, when someone does sth good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it.
great quote....tryin to appli it to mi life now....i always think tt we should reciprocate to how e person treats us...but somehow....is tt jus rite...is tt sth tt 1 should do...i m troubled...i hate e fact tt i m treated this way by them....but there they r....coverin their true identity...pretendin n makin use of mi....but eventualli...theres nth tt i can do...now...all i hope is for everythin to end soon....to end fast....get it over n be done with...
may god bless
havin friendly match again this comin wed. good or bad????
8:19 PM
common test period jus ended....wth..i screwed up everythin...well...but i don care le la....can't be bothered now...e season is too botherin....sian...
jus had trainin...n ended up havin half e trainin with e guys cos they don hv enough players todae....no1 j1s came todae...don koe y...r they all leavin?? i m not sure...but 1 thing for sure...our groupin is out...n we r playin in sa's gp along with mj n jj....haizzzz...sickenin....don koe wat to do...then e guys got tj, vj, rj n yj....sounds worst..but well...i don realli care le la....cos theres jus too much thing to do with too little time...sounds like mi latest gp. ques....haha..
trainin is so borin recently...i m dying for boredom...somehow jus can't get miself to play well on court...jus don seem to hv e mood to play...feel so guilty..
haha...but well...recentli theres somethin tt seems to be encouragin mi to move forward..haha...hv been in quite a good mood recently..it doesn't feel veri good...kind of feel like too much good things r happenin... then bad things will soon come....haizz..how...
next week is e last week of sch n aft e week we r goin to k.l for basketball trip soon...haha...but actualli...i don realli look forward to it.....haizz..don koe y....jus don realli feel like goin with e bballers....but on e other hand....theres quite some other schs comin along to malaysia as well...some to k.l tts same as us...some to malacca...haha....lets hope we'll meet them...
e gurls plannin to get a warm-up t....wonder if we will realli be able to get 1 though....cos most of the time they always san fen zhong re du...haizzz...
siannnnn
10:26 PM
