wow...haven been bloggin for 10 thousand yrs...haha...but haven been in a good mood recently either...plus theres been thousands of things to handle...theres jus not enough time for too many stuffs...haizzz..
attended e chingay last sat. due to cip...usherin was tirin...but fulfillin on e whole...onli a small part tt says tt nv provoke adults...cos they like to bulli young ppl like us...haha...some of these adults were jus practicalli takin us out cos they couldn't get in to watch...but well..e kids there were all so adorable...i jus fell in love with all e kids..haha...i think kids r jus e best...cos they r all so innocent n lovely...they will nv harbour any ill intentions towards ppl...
meanwhile durin e past 2 weeks..quite alot of changes took place in e bball team...aft last week's game vs m.i...many changes took place esp. coach changed our defence technique...back to sth i loved alot since last yr though it takes up alot of energy fr us...but i guess...its fun..haha...she changed it for both e guys team n e gurls team...so yesterdae's game appeared to be veri different fr e previous match against m.i....though i can c tt there r still ppl ard havin a hard time handlin e new defence technique...i can c tt they r all workin veri hard to learn it...but unfortunately..we lost....whether its e sr ppl hu were violent or e ref. tt were bias....e result is..we lost...however...deep in mi heart..i think e guys hv realli won...yucheng fell badli but i guess he played badli too...e 2 new j1s fr cat.high were veri capable too...though prayin mantis don realli koe how to play...but i can c tt he's realli tryin veri hard to learn n play with his teamamtes...jia you prayin mantis..haha...
as for next week..all e j2s r havin their common test n i m seriousli not prepared for it at all..so i guess i m screwed...haizzz...well..but good luck for e rest...
mi strategy for this comin common test is not to fail econs n maths...but as for e stupif lit. text, r.o.t.n & b.n.w...i guess i'll jus hv to give up for this test...haha...
10:05 PM
long since i came here...but haven hv had e mood to come anyway...life's been bored n i don koe wats happenin...
had a match this afternoon....super tired now but can't figure out wat to do...i m jus like stonin in front of e comp. now...super tirin yet don koe wat to do...kind of suck...
then watched e guys game...hmmm...nth to comment...cos i realli don koe wat to say...
then few of us went to e chingay thingy for briefin....but when i reached there they dismissed us...cos we were like kinda late watchin e guys game...haizz...then i went home in empty stomach...sian...
loads of crappy stuff happened recentli...unfortunateli i think none is good...haizzz..seem to be in a series of unlucky streaks recentli...esp. when in sch...i feel even more stressed facin them...studyin has been so stressful with e pile of hmwk stackin up higher n higher...then comes e trainin to add on to e burden tt i m carryin...trainin??? trainin??? ---> no longer seem to mean anythin to mi now...used to be part of mi life in e past when it comes to trainin since it takes up so much of mi time...but now...things might not hv changed but enviroment is changin...ppl in e enviroment are changin so rapidli i m startin to lose e pace of movin forward...losin e courage to walk forward n continue mi journey here...
used to be so confident of miself in understandin humans...but i guess i m too guillible...i m too dumb to believe tt...i lose control of miself...lose control of everythin...i can no longer judge correctli e ppl ard mi...
i wan freedom...i wan out of this place...i feel so stressed now a daes i wanna flee out of this place...if onli i were jus a bird...simple as it is...its always so carefree n unrestricted...flyin in e air passin e clouds in e air n e cool wind blewin past it...how i hope i can be a bird...
this is jus too much for mi to handle...i realli realli m losin grip of it...feels like standin on e peak of e mountain...but losin balance there...seems to be fallin off soon...aft overcomin so much bullshits...this seems to be e hardest hurdle...m i so fun to be make fun of...y is god doin this to mi...will i fall off n die????
10:38 PM
