wrist hurt...so shall not say much.. haha..had a match todae..lost again..miserable..as usual i played badli again..maybe u r rite..i should take a break..tts y i m goin to holidae soon..hehe..don miss mi hor..hehe..now tt i sprain mi wrist c how u dare to bulli mi again =P anyway durin e match missed loads of ball n disappointed coach n miself...of course mi tms i guess..if i didn't play tt badli..then maybe..haizz..ya lo..
need a doc tml for mi wrist..so cannot go out le..sian..



i buy u presents when i come back..u don go fool ard hor!!!!!if not i slaughter u..=P..haha...

11:18 PM

wei!!..thx for todae...its brilliant...amazin..great...hehe...lov ya so much..but i will prefer to love mi comics more.. =PpP haha..so don feel too smug!!! ;) anyway if weren't for u...i'll think todae sucks...though it doesn't concern mi anymore but it sucks!!! scandal!!! but nvm...cos if u dare..i'll strangle u..
went to sch for shootin todae...ran a few rounds but mi leg started to hurt..sucks la..realise shootin is realli quite enjoyable...sch is also quite interestin when its quiet n peaceful.....slack ard at e grandstand n shot quite some balls...shootin % sucks..but i guess it all comes back to trainin n hard work lo...so maybe i should be hard workin..haha..cannot slack...told eryan tt maybe ACJC's game decides our fate....i think so too...n i m startin to hv veri strong opinion abt this...win or lose decides our fate vs Ac...nerissa n andrew came along as well...then brock also came...but felt quite guilty..was supposed to inform brock n mr.loh tt we r not havin trainin...but...failin to do so...they both came down..haha..i m so sorrie...
angela came back le...angel n grace r also back but havin church camp with daisy now..joyce n kristin missin in action somewhere in j.b...i don koe??? e team...+ n - onli left e few small rats around..haha...so kj..even if u r present..it doesn't make a diff...still too little plp to do anythin...so we shall wait for coach then..shes comin back next mon. hopes shje come back soon...n hope next week comes soon...i detest stayin here...
onli with e fact tt u r ard..if not i hate this place now....u ar...!!better don irritate mi hor..!!!hehe...

1:16 AM

fairly good dae todae..peaceful i thought...but 10 mins ago..mi dae was spoilt...i hate this feelin lo...feel like i've been doin redundant things...jus last nite i was tellin eryan abt not havin negative thinkin..but now..i thought no wonder she thinks like tt...so she understands things much faster than mi...i think she is rite...i realli hate this feelin...maybe i shouldn't hv care so much this week...should hv jus let this week be a holidae for them....look at p.s....he is...i should hv done e same thing as him....WTF...i m realli damn angry la...realli realli realli damn disappointed...but i don understand y i m...it realli has nth to do with mi rite...whether we hv or don hv it...i think it no longer makes a difff. rite....we onli hv 3 more mths left...but lookin at ourselves....should i realli hv any hope of winnin anythin...
eryan say she hates losin..angela once told mi tt b4 too...but so do i...however it doesn't work out as smoothli as 1 wants often...
often it is always against others wish...
i don koe wats wrong with mi todae..maybe i m pmsin again...but i realli feel so angry with miself...i feel so useless n hopeless....i want out of this....i need a holidae...i don wanna koe all abt this anymore

10:45 PM

guys had friendli match todae..against St.Andrews' School...they lost...49-63...wasn't tt bad aft all...better than our team lo..haha...but then...todae was e 1st time i attempted to be a official referee..haha..e feelin suckss...feels damn freaky...esp. i was refereein for guys game lo..not like e gurls game so slack onli...
standin there obviousli no longer seems as relax as it is...esp. when being a gurl there...i realise they wun respect u..in fact they look down on u...think tt u can't make it n etc...haizzz...
so in e end got reprimanded by some of them...so damn disappointed by them lo...i still miss mi sec. sch teammates

10:38 PM

played with anglican todae n suffered e worst defeat i ever gotten ever since i came to cj...85-16...realli e worst i guess...last yr e worst was onli like when we played against scgs but it was still i guess much better than todae...but...at least it wouldn't be tt bad if our gurls hadn't give up tt easily...i guess like wat coach said we were all too taken aback by e way e gurls there were playin...they were realli veri good...i mus admit we r definiteli not their standard...but...y do u guys wanna give up so soon...
i still remembered last yr i went in e same sch too around this time of e yr but it was with a diff. totalli diff. team...eventhough results were rather bad too...but we nv give up...so y should we now...eventhough we r much more lousier than them..but i mus admit tt e looks on our players face todae...is realli awful...its realli saddenin to c such scene happenin jus at e moment when e other players r fightin on court...n wats worst...players on court also reveal e same expression...is it realli true tt e team has come to an end...theres realli no more road ahead for us to walk on...
angela jus left e nite b4 yesterdae remindin mi tt i should take good care of them...but now...todae...this thing hv to happen...i c e despair look on mi teammates faces...e look tt says "as usual we r losin again...no pt playin further"...pls don...givin up is a coward act...onli cowards to tt...
no matter wat e score is like...givin up in e middle of e game alreadi means u lost e battle...even if at tt moment i koe tt its a sure lose battle...but if we give up it onli proves to our opponent how weak n useless we r....however i m sure cj is not like tt...e gurls aren't neither will e guys be...todae has been disastrous...guys r playin against St.Andrews' Sch tml..wish them all e best...jia you!!!
on e other hand...outin for our team seems to get more n more fun...went to east pt for lunch todae n talked quite some crap there...haha...quite fun la...but still quite bothered at e fact tt our gurls r actualli so vunerable...like wat coach say..we can't accept strong challengers...haizzz..

10:36 PM