Monday, August 30, 2004
this feelin sucks..i swear...i nv wan to feel this things again...
e feelin is so sour...tears keep rollin down mi cheeks...it hurts....it realli hurts..
everythin hurts now........y.....
y did god gave us e sense of feel....it hurts.....
y....y...y does it hurts so much....i feelin worst than i ever felt...
y...
9:57 PM
feel such a failure...
i jus wanted to organise a potluck so tt every1 could come together n hv a mini gatherin b4 every1 goes muggin for their promos...
but it seems tt its not goin to be successful...haizz...
i failed to get coach a pressie...then failed to get e card sign in time...then failed to oraganise a proper potluck...n failedddddd....****....
i suck...in everythin there can be...
potluck...??? i guess we will hv to forget abt it then..its always a sided wishful thinkin fr mi...like y m i so bhb...no1 wans it anyway...
come to think of it..maybe andrew was rite....e potluck's gonna end up to be 1 person potluck...with onli mi in there....
tts damn
pathetic..typical
loser...serve mi rite to fall sick...serve mi rite to fell into e drain...serve mi rite not to be successful in anythin i do....
oh men....
:(
9:36 PM
Sunday, August 29, 2004
makin cheeecake at mi friend's house...finishin e 5th 1...
ever since we started it has been like 10 hrs..
so tirin...but still had to finish it..since i was e 1 hu proposed to do all this stupid things n made every1 so tired now..
sorrie guys..
but hope everything turns out fine on tuesdae n every1 will love e cakes n cookies...
=)
but guess wat...charlene jus called n gave us a "good" news...
ayantika when to collect e cake from charlen's place n filpped 1 cake over..n smashed their hard work...
alls gone men...omg...wth actualli happened..theres goes 2 hrs of their hardwork leh...can u imagine..they waited 2 hrs for e cake to be completed..but she jus smashed it within secs..omg....
somethings jus not rite men..haha....
now hope everythin goes rite tml in sch..haha...
8:46 PM
Saturday, August 28, 2004
Sunday, August 22, 2004
sometimes in life..u nv koe wat happens next..so often every1 says: cherish e person u hv..tell him/her how u feel towards him/her so tt u wun regret it...
but how many times in our life hv we heard this but yet to do so...many many times...its simple sayin to learn to cherish plp...but its nv easy to
cherish trueli...
n how many times hv we heard plp say they love him they love her...but it nv comes true...they nv love them...its jus a facade put on by human beings...every1 puts on a mask when they come out everydae...the uses diff. mask to face diff. plp fr diff. woks of life..like Iago in "Othello"...he faces Othello as a man of loyalti..but faces Roderigo like as if his in charge...his nv remove e mask in front of any1 b4 on stage unless he's doin his soliloquy...
then again..plp don wanna face e world with their true self...but they like to dominate others...they try to dominate others in hope of establishin his/her own identity in e area..sounds ridiculous but most of e time plp do do tt...consciousli we might not koe tt we r bein dominated but sometimes subconsicousli we r also dominatin some1 else...
no1s serious abt anythin in life..
we come to e world empty handed with nth in mind..free of all work n loads...we should thus leave e world as we entered e world..
1:14 AM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
this world is so contradictin..its always contradictin e facts in life...
his so disappointin...i don koe y but tts how i feel curentli...
i nv knew i was so serious abt it until now...but yet i m so tired n disappointed by wat he's doin...
but its actualli so insignificant to plp yet i m so bothered by it...feel so helpless...n dumb...y m i so dumb...
he seem so can't be bothered but here m i being troubled over some menial stuff tt he has done...y...y...y...
if its like tt then can they stay away fr mi sight...i rather feel down not seein u then gettin hurt again n again by u...do u koe how tough izt to fight against e pain of it...
8:54 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2004
藉口
翻着我们的照片 想念若隐若现
去年的夏天 我们笑的很甜
看着你哭泣的脸 对着我说再见
来不及听见 你已走的很远
也许你已经放弃我 也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过
请在给我一个理由说你不爱我
就算是我不懂 能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头 我会陪你一直走到最后
就算没有结果 我也能够承受
我知道你的痛是我给的承诺
你说给过我從容 沉默是因为包容
如果要走 请你记得我
如果难过 请你记得我
12:40 AM
i hate every1...they all sucks...n i suck too...oh men...idiotsss..s..s..s.ss.ssss.sss.s............s..s.s.s..s.s.s.s
ist jus so hard to get some1 hu can be understandin towards ur feelins...y didn't adam n eve create plp hu r more understandin..y is every1 so insensitive to plp's feelins...izt feelins supposed to be e most impt thing in life...but in this world..every1 seems to be tryin their ways n means to hurt each other...H.A.H.A ...so sacarstic indeed.... god created man not for us to live in misery didn't he...it was meant for any happy world...peaceful life didn't he....but now..alls gone...
12:15 AM
Friday, August 13, 2004
jus came back fr e sch's drama prod. was actualli quite cool...but kind of borin cos i read e script b4...haha...fr mi friend hu was performin...but overall...it was quite surprisin to mi tt cj's drama society is actualli not bad..haha...
however some jerks tend to appear in these situations n spoil e nice part of it...they were talkin n laughin n shoutin when they shouldn't...some bloody spoiler i should say...but hu cares...haha...since i wasn't veri interested abt it in e 1st place..haha..onli went there to support dinesh...haha...
jus got back mi maths re-test yesterdae...n guess wat..i got 69.5...haha...so happi..eventhough its a retest n its expected tt i should get this type of results like wat leonard say..but i m still veri veri happi..haha..cos hardli c miself gettin such a high grade for maths..i mean might not be high for those smart plp..but its quite good for mi le..hehe...BUT...leonard had to spoil mi fun n dampen mi mood yesterdae by tellin mi i should get this results since i m "EXPERIENCED"...he sucks leh...eventhough he may be quite rite..but to do tt..it hurts quite alot...traumatizes mi esp since i regarded him as mi friend..haizzz...i guess this is wat u get when u don study hard enough n u get all sorts of sacarsm fr plp around u lo..
jus now on mi way back..i made another type of conclusion...i feel tt benneath each beautiful mask...hides an ugly inner feelins of each individual...some plp may look nice to u...but once u turn around u nv know wat he/she's gonna do behind u...it sort of hurts mi veri much..esp if e person is mi close friend...however...as time passes plp hv learnt n built e "Berlin Wall" to protect their heart fr being hurt...but how e hell r we gonna get in touch with e real feelins of e society if we do tt...so
IRONIC....
10:11 PM
Wednesday, August 11, 2004
Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Monday, August 09, 2004
went to c e fireworks jus now..so cool..so nice..seems normal to some but this is e 2nd time i got to c fireworks in real life...e last time was like 5 yrs ago durin mi actual ndp performance..
it was super crowded but i thought aft all its quite worth it..eventhought it lasted for less than 5 mins i guess...i captured e video of e fireworks...but unfortunateli didn't capture e pics of it...
now its national dae...happi bdae singapore..!!!hehe...
feels kinda tired...to go all e way there jus to c some 5 mins fireworks...lol...seems so stupid..
but it was so crowded..n there was performance by e chinese artiste..didn't manage to catch it...onli like saw a tiny bit of tony sun but was on e screeen tt i saw him..so aft all..i didn't c him..haha..
when i saw e fireworks high up in e air...with diff. colour appearin each time...it jus made mi feel tt aft all life is not as dull as i think it to be..lol...its colourful...
life's full colour...jus like fireworks..
12:38 AM
Wednesday, August 04, 2004
trainin todae..so tired..but quite fulfilin...
hehe...
weran 3 rounds outside e sch...n started doin some physical..
forgotten to do warm up todae..so aft i started runnin..mi leg become veri pain..
then e guys had their testimonial game..didn't watched it..cos we were havin trainin...
e new gurl debra seems to be veri exasperated as she couldn't catch up with e pace of e team..
but then seein every1 improve aft every trainin..it jus feels so good...
we had 5 vs 5 todae..finalli had enough plp to play 5 vs 5..
er yan we in mi team..shes cool..didn't koe tt...
1st time played with her..but seems like we hv good chemistry....
she made a few passes to mi for fast break...
n i made a few passes to her to e back door...
N i blocked some1's shots...hehe...feel so happi....
realli realli happi...
9:57 PM
Tuesday, August 03, 2004
