feelin veri depressed now...
cos of...haizzz...feel like i m being made use of...
but theres nth i can do...cos it was mi hu willingly walk into this bloody stupid n obvious trap...
think i m jus a stupid idiot...
always doin e wrong thing at e wrong time...
watever it is...all i know now is i m not gonna care abt any things except for e cumin few friendly matches...
4/2 ---> CjC vS yJc
11/2 ---> CjC vS sRjC
18/2 ---> CjC vS vJc
e onli thing i can do now is use these games to forget wat happened..
haizz...
stupid mi...fancy doin such stupid things n gettin happi over it...when i m actualli being made use of...
10:48 PM
whahaha
jus came back fr macrhitie fr e 4.2 km run...
our class alot of plp slackin..
but still quite fun...
now we r in e computer lab doin our econs..
mdm mary goh veri funni..kept askin us to go here n tt..
she says she wans to teach us how to surf e net..
which is...hmmm...
haha..
11th of feb is e match against srjc...
haizz..
quite scared i freak out again on tt dae...but wat to do..
i HV TO MAKE UP FOR e scgs match...
haizz....i m now tryin to overcome e fear of freakin out in e game...
haha...n i believe i can do it...i hv abt less than a mths time...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i hope e guys can beat srjc...
but of course i hope we can win 1st lo..
whahaha...
12:07 PM
todae i finalli understood e meanin of "god's fair to everyone"
he gave u sth to do...he will take away another of urs another dae...
when i felt e warmth fr e class n mi friends...
i was face with e fact tt friends tt i thought were to be mine weren't...
i realli thought they were mi friends...
i realli thought so...
but e reality prove to be wrong...
i realise its all one-sided affairs...
jus when i felt tt i was in heaven...some1 pulled mi back to reality...to e harsh n cruel society..."e HELL"
i m so guilable, stupid, dumb idiotic n ass shit hole...
i thought i hv e power to take back wat god took away fr mi...
but i was wrong...i m jus a mini idiotic nth in front of everyone...
i thought i had e power..but no..i was wrong...
i m jus nth...
nth of wat i do can affect plp...can affect anyone...
i don koe y i felt so hurt...like i m a faker hus just tryin to gain compassion n pity fr e audience watchin this play...
words n actions tt they did forcefully pry open mi heart n dug everythin tts left there...
i know i m jus a nobody to them...but i didn't realise tt they hate mi so much...so much tt made mi feel as if i shouldn't even exist in this world...
but i know tt there r plp supportin mi...i realli thank u guys...i realli appreciate it..
cos if its without u guys...i might hv collapsed...
thanks...
9:25 PM
todae e guys played e 1st friendly match of e year
its also e most amazin match i've ever seen so far...
its veri nice...good job guys...
though they lost...
they played against acjc...
61-56
11th feb we will be playin against srjc
i don koe how i'll be playin tt dae..
but for miself...e team..coach n mitch..
so this time i mustn't disappoint her especially...
7:50 PM
hey...i m in such a good mood...
i love mi new class...1t08...
haha
i realli love them...
yesterdae i fell down fr e stairs..but doesn't matter...cos i was in a good mood..
eventhough i was scolded by coach...
anyway...decided to work hard for this few mths for e national games...
sorrie coach..n mitch...
i jus made a photo album
hope u guys can check it out whenever u r free...anyway its cos i don koe how to use this stupid thingy tt i m pttin e webby here la..
hehe...
http://groups.msn.com/1T08CJC/myfavourites.msnw?Page=1
support k...
=)
7:45 PM
