his leavin off made mi realise how cruel e world is...
e world is so cruel...
his leavin made e team seem to hv plunge into a disaster...
though no much plp hv mentioned anything...
but i can feel e sadness in everyone of them...
i might not hv know him for long...but his a veri nice person...
i wished him all e best in his future undertakings...
n go cj bball team...
i believe tt we can all do it...
8:13 PM
somethings drainin mi off...
i m beginnin to lose confidence in miself...
dun koe wat to do...dun koe wats happenin...
suddenly felt tt theres no one around mi to support mi...
i hope i can still handle e present situation...
i dun wish to give up...but it seems tt i m being drain out...
haizz..
4:38 PM
been long since i've written sth...
previously wasn't in too much a mood for this...
but finally thought it over...
nth in this world owes mi anything..
e world would not stop revolvin cos i m depressed...
sometimes i feel tt e world is unfair to mi...but come to think of it...its not too bad to mi either...
at least they did not deprived mi off a chance of livin...
i had a cold war with 2 of mi friends in cj...
i alreadi forgotten how it began...
i wanted to sign a peace treaty with them...but i was rejected...
but wat hurt mi most is they never tried to understand mi...
i know it may be hard for one to approach to understand someone..
cos there was a sayin tt goes...
HUMANS R SELFISH
i was depressed in e beginnin...
but i realise it was off no use...
cos they would not turn n care for mi regardless wat happen...
i didn't ask for much...all i wanted was some1 hu cares abt mi...
n wouldn't leave mi in e lurch when i needed their help...
when i met them..i thought i found them...
but i was once again disappointed...
however...life is often so amazin...
they r often full of surprises...
be it good or bad...all we can do was to accept it...
this cold war may be too long...but i choose to believe tt one dae i can find back e 2 tt i knew in e beginnin...
without hope there will be no chance...
this week was veri happenin to mi...
it made mi realise lots of things...
e cold war tt i m havin now with mi 2 friends...
n e 2 games tt we've jus had...
mondae we played with our seniors...all of them felt so confident...but mi heart was tellin mi...its not gonna be rite...
true enough...we lost..quite terribly...mitch was veri disappointed...coach was...joanna was pissed....i was angry...
veri veri angry...not with any1 but miself...
todae we played against anglican high school...they r a level higher than us no matter in wat area....
their avg height is taller than us...they r moe experienced then most of our players....
i feel veri sorrie to e team...cos as a controller i know tt i've failed mi duties...
i m realli realli SORRIE...
i know tt no matter wat i say also wun make us win e match le...but i hope u guys dun give up hope...
cos without hope there will be no more chance...
coach has high expectations of us...n all of use believe tt we can do it...
so lets do it n do our coach n ourselves proud...
lets all train hard n strive for e best...
guys...u too...
u guys can also do it...
though u guys lost to jj for ur 1st friendly match...but u guys did an excellent job...
e vast improvement is seen by everyone of us...
though i dun wish to admit...but u guys r realli improvin at a veri fast speed...
michael...edwin...i believe ur dream to toa payoh can be tranformed to a target...
u guys can do it if u remain to work this hard...
know tt tomorrow u guys havin ur testimonial match...
its e 2nd match..
n i believe tt u guys can get ur revenge tomorrow...
no matter wat...i'll always support u guys...
gO cJc BaSkEtBaLL tEaM
say so much todae wonder when will be e next time i cum here...
remember ino matter how depressed we r...
we mus always carry hope...cos onli with hope will there be chance...
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6:49 PM
