wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
such a long time since i've been here....30th may...my last post..
haha...ard 3 mths +++....
during this period, my mid-yrs r alreadi over, mi mock exams n even mi prelims...
haha...
nth much to talk abt....cos e results sucks...
been watchin a couple of dramas and serials....super nice...esp. Full House....rain n song rocks!!!!haha
jus found another quote....
super nice...
"Don't ask the sun to always shine; it can't for leaves exist.
Don't ask the leaves to fall' it can't cos wind exists.
Don't ask me not to fall in love; I can't for you exists."
2:09 AM
haven been here for quite some time n i realise sometimes i m so glad this pg still works...cos this pg is realli e best place for mi to vent all mi anger...
this has been a veri bad week...but to make it worst...e last person tt i wanna c hovers ard mi everydae!!! n todae i hv to be accused of sth tt i did not do...instead of askin mi 1st she told mi off!!!!!!!!! i m not angry tt i got a scoldin but i m angry tt i m being accused!!!!!
i realli hate this feelin....every1 pretends to be such nice persons but behind ur back they r jus normal ppl hu talks behind ur back...they pretend to be such saints but wat do they do behind u...i don koe...i realli don koee...
n i HATE HER...i realli realli don like her...her presence always makes mi puke...i hate to act n pretend to be such a noble girl in front of every1...i don deny i m a bitch...but do u hv to go to such extent...if u hate mi say so...cos neither do i like u...but y do u wan to harm mi...
I HATE U!!!!!
8:06 PM
seems like i haven been here for ages...n it realli does feel like its like this...
haizzz...when was e last time i came here....mid march...n its alreadi beginnin of may now...
lets c...
i hv like another 4-5 mths to work hard for mi A's....
actualli...mi bball season jus ended..quite sad....therotically speakin..it has not ended...at least not for e remainin top 8s....so obviousli...this meant tt we r e 1s tt has been ousted fr e 1st round...its quite sad....but wat can i say....e stronger survives on court n e weak 1s leave...i don koe if we r considered e weak 1s...or if we r actualli strong but we ended up in e sadder groupin n so got kicked out...
but anyways....its all over...n mi onli regret now is...i didn't make it a good n sweet dream for mi, mi team n coach....losin e game tt i had confidence in was jus like a repeat of mi nightmare last yr when we lost to yjc by 3 pts...it was a tough fight but then we still lost...then...this yr....it repeated again..we lost to mjc onli aft e endin whistle ended so...haizzz...i mean we lost again la..by 2 pts..
then again...its all over...but mitch always tells mi tt its always good to hv sth in life to look forward to...so well...i do hv sth to look forward to everydae i wake up in e mornin...so..hehe...
goodnite
1:40 AM
haiyo...last dae of holidae le...but i still haven finish any hmwk yet...haha
jus came back fr k.l few daes ago...played 2 matches on e 2nd dae n another on e last dae on our way back...lost all e games but i guess every1 earned sth fr this trip...saw e improvement in many of them which i guess is e best reward for e trip...daisy is gettin more n more stable as she gets mroe n more rebounds for e team....her rebounds sure do make a diff. to e shooters shootin...plus angel is gettin e concept of attackin n her reboundin skills r equalli good...i guess we may hv lost all e games but its thx to these few games tt every1's improvin...i gout fouled out in mi 1st game though...n actualli got 4 fouls in e 1st quarter for mi 2nd game...mi most amzin record on fouls. i guess...haha...mi score was pathetic though...think i onli scored abt 17 pts throughout e whole trip...onli 17 when we played 3 games....haha...but i scored a 3 pter though...haha..damn tyco cos i haven been shootin for so long...but well...better than nth...durin e last game...we broke e opponents full court press with 1 beautiful fast break though....i guess its realli damn nice...haha..
on e other hand..e guys r also doin quite well...they almost won e 2nd game but a pity 8 of them got fouled out and so there were a lack of players towards e end of e game thus they lost...but well..i guess they did quite well overall though..
e trip was....hmmmm...not bad lo...every1 seems to hv enjoyed themselves...n we saw loads of acjc ppl there since we were stayin in e same hotel...drank e pelican on e 1st nite...n decided i should get to bed earli b4 i get knocked out....haha...but e alcohol is not as bad as i thought la...its actualli like fruit juice..haha...
on e last dae of e trip...met e m.i ppl in e restaurant for lunch...they were supposed to hv a game b4 us but they were late..so in e end...our whole trip was delayed...i reached home at 1130....
tt was e summary for e k.l trip...
went to watch hitch with him on fri. n e show rocks!!! haha...but i guess i chose e wrong seatin...ppl in front of us were hittin us whenever they laugh..n ppl behind us were kickin us everytime they started laughin...those typical ah bengs..haha...but we still kind of enjoyed e show la....cos hitch is jus so funni....n e show is so sweet...Sarah's philosophy reminds mi of his philosophy...haha...but sarah changed her mind towards e end of e show, she changed her philosophy totalli...so i guess i will change his mind too..haha...i shall make him be another sarah... =)
actualli jus when i thought this holiddae sucks...but actualli e last few daes was actualli quite ok lo...haha...e movie was great especialli...haha
gtg finish mi rest of e hmwk...but actualli i m goin out again..haha...can't stand stayin at home anymore....too crowded...kind of can't stand it anymore if i stay any longer..quite glad sch's startin again tml....
1:40 PM
leavin tml...but probs. r surfacin again....sian...
1st its packin e bags...i hate it when i hv to sit down n think wat i need for e trip...then i hv to start packin it so tt its neat n tidy n all e bullshits la...so. mi sol. to this prob. is....get a big bag....n it mus be a SUPER GIGANTIC HUGE 1...haha...n i got it...i threw everythin tt i think i need into e bag.n..................mi bag is done....haha..i don care wats gonna happen next. but all i koe now is. packin is a hassle...so throwin is so much mroe easier...
but then. mi parents start naggin mi abt those bullshits. tt i hate to hear....but worst of all..they compare mi with all their fav. niece n nephews of theirs....oh mi..!!! craps n bullshits...since they love them so much...ok FINE!!!. they should get them as their kid....y accept mi as their daughter then....all they r concern with is them. then fine....go love them n dote on them....hate mi n kill mi then...i jus can't stand it when they seem to shower mroe concern for them then for mi....y do i feel like they love them more then they love mi....i hate them!!!!! y do they treat their daughter like this...sometimes it realli occurs to mi if i m reallli their daughter...!!!! m i???? jus b4 e trip leavin for mi basketball overseas trip....they come to mi with all these bullshits instead of concern n love for mi askin mi to take care...they nag abt mi for not helpin them out...!!!do they realli love mi...i bet they don...all they do is love mi beloved sis. n all mi cousins bullshits tt i hv...they don even care if anythin will happen to mi durin e trip. i bet they will laugh out loud if i meet with any accident durin mi k.l trip....if its realli like this...then fine lo. i kind of then hope tt i meet with an accident e moment i step out of mi house tml...!!!! y do i feel tt they hate mi loads....reminds mi of e tv serial tt i've been catchin recentli on sun. in e nite...e mum hates e daughter cos e daughter is an adopted kid......m i 1???
but fortunateli...great things did happen todae too.....though not realli considered great...but i finalli heard fr him. n i m so glad nth happen...haha...i still thought he feel down e deep blue sea drownin himself...lol....
tml's finalli e overseas trip. i kind of look forward to it in e past. but now....i don think so...seems to be jus another burden for mi....don realli like this feelin of hangin in e air. but i thought maybe good things will still happen...though we r not goin to e same place...i still sincerli hope tt we will meet on e way or sth...though i don koe how strong e opponents r gonna be....n i heard tt we will br thrashed...i still hope tt every1 will be able to perform n play to their optimum...though i don koe if i m gonna realli enjoy this trip. but i still hope tt i will c it fr e bright side. n forget everythin tts unhappi....haha...y do i feel like i m consolin miself...haizz/..but nvm la...somethin is better than nth....
i saw this quote todae... "God created love for mankind; learn to love n u'll be love."
i kind of wan to think its true...n i hope its true...i believe in miracle believe in fate believe in instincts...believe in everythin n anythin tt ppl might not or would nto believe in...all superstitiousness n etc...but its cos of this believe tt makes mi still hv e courage to still stand on where i stand now...i may not hv e courage to face them. but its e believe n faith tt i hv with mi friends tt they will stand by mi tt makes take this veri firm stand tt i take now..
haha....seem to hv bullshit too much...wat m i doin...haizzzi mus be crazy...
11:28 PM
KISS-Because I'm a girl
wu hoo ye ye ye he ye ye ye he oo hoo , hoo -
do dae che al soo ga ups u - nam ja deul uy ma eum
wun hal ddaen un je go da joo ni i jen ddu nan de e
i run jug chu eum i ra go nu neun teug byul ha da neun geu mal eul mid uss u
nae gen haeng bog i yuss u -
mal eul ha ji geu raess u - nae ga shirh u jyuss da go o o o
noon chi ga ups neun nan
neul bo chae gi man haess u hoo hwu hwu
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ja i ni gga
mwu deun gul swip ge da joo myu yun -
geum bang shil jeung nae neun ge nam ja ra deul uss u teul rin mal gat ji anh a - a
da shi neun sog ji anh eu ri hi ma eum mug u bo ji ma an
ddo da shi sa rang e moo nu ji neun ge yu ja ya a ha -
mal eul ha ji geu raess u - nae ga shirh u jyuss da go o o o
noon chi ga ups -neun nan
neul bo chae gi man haess u oo hwu hwu
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ja i ni gga
[narration]
,o neul oo rin he u jyuss u,
,boo di haeng bog ha ra go , nu bo da joh eun sa ram man na gil ba ran da go
,nu do da reun nam ja rang ddog gat ae , nal sa rang han da go ,mal hal ddaen un je go,
,,,,,,,,sol jig hi ,,na ,, ni ga jal doe neun gu shirh u,
,na bo da ,ye ppeun yu ja man na haeng bog ha ge jal sal myun u dduh ge
,geu ru da nal jung mal ,ij u bu ri myun u dduh ge
,nan i ruh ge him deun de , him deul u joog gess neun de,
,a jig do nul nu moo sa rang ha neun de,,,
sa rang eul wi hae su ra myun mwu deun da hal soo iss neu eun
yu ja uy chag han bon neung eul i yong ha ji neun mal a jyo hwu - [hoo ----]
na (deul ril deus mal deus ) han yu ja ro tae u na , sa rang bad go sa neun ge i he he
i ruh ge him deul go u ryu ool jool mol rass u hwu -
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ja i ni gga
nu reul yog ha myun su do manh i geu ri ool gu ya
sa rang i jun boo in na neun yu ..ja .i .....ni gga hwu hwu -
...translation of e song...so sweet...
Kiss *Because I'm a girl*--------------------------------------
i just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special i believed those words
and i was so happy you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
i heard that if you give up things too easily to a man, he will get bored with you
i don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again but she will fall in love again
you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but i couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
[narration] Hey babe the pain it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but i know now i've been blind you told me that youd never let me down whenever i needed you you'd always be here
i can forgive but i cant forget even though you hurt me
i still love you i still love you
don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love and her caring instinct
i didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you since i am a girl, to whom love is everything
1:15 AM
